FUCKOFF poem

this is me,
I like being a me,
it feels more me than youll ever be,
so i will stay as a me.

now you're you,
you probably dont like what I do,
but thats just you,
please stop trying to change a me into a you.

FUCK OFF!!

I know what I am going to get!

A few months back I blogged about what I would do after my finishing degree and what I would want to get with my salary.
Well, depending on if I land myself a job or not, I had some 'amendment' to that list I created before.

The first thing that I would like to get from my first salary is a very nice meal with my parents. I remembered a few years back when I went to Pizza with my parents and my brother's family and my brother paid the bill. My mom seemed so proud and said to me "one day it will be your turn". Fuckin hell it will!

Then, the next thing that I would personally get for myself is a new fish tank. I'm considering it an upgrade to what my fishes are now living in. As I stated in a wishlist I've created before, I would like a Fluval Edge. The last time I saw it was in Ikano's Pet Safari and it was RM 390 at that time. I dont know how much it would cost me now.

Whereas the tank is more a need than a want, this item however is more a want than a need. I want a Master Grade 00 Gundam Seven Sword/G complete with LED set (sold separately). I saw a review on this model kit and was smitten by how cool it looked. sadly it would cost around 5,500 yen (official price) which is about RM 205. But I've seen a few sites selling it for around 4,675 yen or less which is about RM171 (the lowest I've seen was 4,400 yen). Sadly this kit doesnt come with LEDs so I would have to get them too. 1 set costs 1,100 yen which is around RM 41 but some sold it for less and I would need 2 sets of them since the model have for LED points.


Anyway, I need to get ready for my job interview which will be at any fuckin time now. I hope I can get the job, although it doesnt pay as much as what my friends are getting. It would make me afford such luxurious wishes.

ps: for my convocation, if anybody want to give me flowers or shits, dont bother. I only accept SD Gundam Age-1 model kits for that occasion... hahahahahaha


Ref:
http://www.1999.co.jp/eng/10153370
http://www.1999.co.jp/eng/10159814

Vanity Fair

My Mum, Dad and I had our photo taken today so that we could renew our passport
in case we need to go out of the country
like, for instance, my sis's convocation or something.
So we went to the photo shop
(I call it that because its a shop that process n take passport size photos but still sells other stuff like ear rings and shits).

We had our photo taken and it took quite a while for our pictures to be printed.
From what I can hear, I deduce that the price was quite unreasonable
(deduction made from my Mum's whining when the shopkeeper told her the price).
The picture was OK~
Cant really see much details from a picture the size of a stamp.
But when I get home and saw the picture on my PC
(she gave us individual CD containing a file of our photos)
the picture was f**king blurry!
My drawing at 5 a.m can be sharper than that.
Its like Jar Jar Binks spit in your eyes kind of blurry.

So I decided to have a little fun with the picture. Hence,

Yeah guys!
I AM f**kin' worth it!

Of hopes and dreams

It has been a long time since I created a poem.
But tonight, with my joints numb from fever, I came up with this;

Wouldn't it be nice;

if one day I could land myself a good job,

if then I could bring my mother and father on holiday trips,

if then I could pay for all their expenses.

Wouldn't it be nice;

if one day I could by my mum the handbags she always wanted,

but never get the chance to because its too expensive,

if then I could make her happy.

Wouldn't it be nice;

if one day I could get my dad all the gadgets he always wanted,

all the hard wares he need around the house.

Wouldn't that make him happy.

I wish one too many things,

but rarely for others,

so tonight,

I wish for my mother's and father's.

Its really rough. It lacks the rhyming I always loved in poems. But it'll do. 

Tonight is not for technique, tonight is for context.

Y U So Mean?!!!?

Last nite I had a dream... 

just like any other dreams, i cant really recall the story lines, but i do recall some of the bits that i find very interesting...

For example, in that dream I bought a black and yellow LBX Lucifer and also a Blood Red Gafran.

But the most interesting bit of that dream is that I had long hair

(offcourse in the dream I had black hair and no facial markings)
But it is exactly as shown.
I even had dark blue highlights on the side.
It is my dream hairstyle

and it disappeared when i wake.

#FML!

Padan muke kau!
suke sangat bawak kete ada lampu blink* blink* kat meter!
Ingat comel?!?!



ps: pg tadi kereta x dpt gerak kerana dehydrated... so terpaksa menyewa tong minyak n bli minyak ntok bagi die motivation spy dapat g ke kedai minum ntok dptkan 100 plus

NightShadow WIP

A few days ago, one of my friends tagged and asked me about my fictional character. The following day I wrote an extended note regarding that character (still in rough draft) because I got too carried away in the tag game. At the same time, I have also started to do a sketch of my fictional character. Everything is still basic (standing pose with no weapons and minimal armor) until last nite Mr. Farzen asked me to do a sketch of my fictional character during a skill. Its quite interesting but Im also nervous to do a skill pose since Im not very skilled in doing a posed character. But still I tried; 

The idea of this picture is my character during void travelling. Plus, a servitor (the snake). The original idea of the servitor is that its a water servitor, the one closest to the user and that it can change form when its elements are changed. The snake form is intended to be in water element with the ability to heal & procure antidote but is also used in scouting since a snake is able to move stealthily.

I dont have a lot of problem drawing the pose but its the skill effect that sux. My pad is now stained of pencil stains that wont disappear.

It sux real time that my camera can't capture a decent picture. But maybe after I finished my final year project,  I'll edit the picture and maybe even color it. but for now, I'll leave it as it is.